It Fucking Sucks

When you started getting anxiety that your partner will never be fully well. When you teeter living apart so your kids aren't fully fucked up and staying together because they will completely miss him.

When your kid cries because they want to spend some good quality time with him and he says no. Not because he's an ass he's just fucked up. 

Anxiety

Francis has been off work about a week now, suffering from serious anxiety. We are seeing his psychiatrist this morning. I think he will need more time off of work or possibly a hospital stay.

I can see him fighting through it and I can see it's taking a toll on him.

I'm trying to give him space and time. That includes filtering everyday things and trying not to take things to heart. This is life right now. Moving forward without trying to leave him behind.